Saturday, August 30, 2008

Isn't he a sweety pie!

Big big smile, bright blue eyes like his daddy! I see since I last saw him his hair has darkened. Can't wait to see the grandkids and Amy and Brandon at Christmas time.
Talked to Brianne the other day. I figure that Brandon has a mild form of autism and she confirmed it. I said whatever help he needs outside of what the state is providing we would pay for.
I hope to have a picture of Zoey as a first grader. I'm going to call this weekend. She's spending the weekend with her brother and that's a good thing.
Not much to say today so I'll leave a couple of links for your enjoyment.
drugs used and those that are in the process of being FDA approved
til tomorrow!

Thursday, August 28, 2008

OK I'm back LOL

Well we got the dog situation straightened out. I went to the counselor yesterday and felt better after it.

I started an online job and I'm doing good. It's on my schedule and it's something I like doing - researching. I need to have some "pocket money" - to get massages and things to help my fibromyalgia and arthritis.

It's my birthday today and I got an e-mail card from Amy. I can't remember the last time she sent me a card and it made me feel SO good! I love her to bits. Today is also 45 years ago Martin Luther King delivered his "I have a dream" speech - so inspiring!

...til tomorrow

Friday, August 22, 2008

Long story short

We gave Buckshot back to his owners. I am sick & sad over this but I'm sure like one of my online friends told me "he will go to a good home with a little boy to run with". I hope so.

. . . til tomorrow.

Not feeling well

but trying to keep a promise to myself to post a blog every day. I fell last night and I'm not in the best of moods, but I'm trying to rest & stay positive.

I'm leaving a few links to browse through I though interesting today: (if you have someone or know someone school aged going back to school)

. . . til tomorrow

Thursday, August 21, 2008

One of my TV guilty pleasures . . .

Project Runway LOL

I started watching last year and I love it. All the drama, cat fights and bitchiness - and that's just the guys! This week's episode "Good Queen Fun" was great. I love the color, the outrageous-ness, the clever way of showing and hiding the models "assets" or "candy" as I hear mentioned.

Not doing much blogging today. Still tired out - Bucky is like having a baby but thank God he does sleep through the night. No puppy whining except to tell us when he needs outside. I hurt all over but it's ok - I need the exercise LOL.

. . . til tomorrow.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Article about Fibromyalgia I read . . .

in The Mid-Willamette Valley your health supplement that you find in doctors offices throughout Salem.

Very interesting -

it talks about cutting out sugar, gluten and wheat from your diet to lessen the pain.

I am going through a "flare" where pain intensifies throughout the body. I am a bit stressed to tell the truth about our new addition to the family. He is a BIG dog and I've never owned a big dog. I did finally get a full night sleep last night YAY!

I've been officially diagnosed 2 years ago and still trying to figure this fibro out LOL.

Other news - Rich called Amy and he's wanting to talk to her. I'm hoping this is a step in healing their relationship.

. . . til tomorrow

Monday, August 18, 2008

This is a LITTLE harder than I thought LOL

Rich bought home Buckshot yesterday. He told me the day before he was a little bigger than Curly but man he sure weighs a bit more LOL. His mom is a yellow lab and his dad is chocolate - he has a bit of dark brown from his eye to his nose - looks like he got into some chocolate syrup LOL. He is 9 weeks - a puppy - I just didn't realize all that entails. It's been quite a while since we had a puppy in the house - especially one that finds everything SO tasty LOL.
Will try to write some later - brain is fried since I got up at 2:30 am this morning.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Another dog and other ramblings for today

Rich calls me from work yesterday and says "I'm going to see about a dog for sale". He's wanted a lab for some time now. He tells me that the dog will come with him to work when possible. I just had misgivings about raising another dog. Well, not just another dog but a BIG dog LOL. Rich went and saw this puppy - yep he's 9 weeks old - and says he's as big as Curly is. Curly is full grown - a mini poodle. We as a couple haven't had a dog bigger than a mini poodle so this is going to be "interesting" to say the least LOL. Aw what the heck - it's gonna be fun too - isn't it LOL?

I got a phone call yesterday. At first I didn't recognize the voice but it was Gayle. I thought she had moved back down to CA with her son & family. I met her through Janet, the lady we hired to clean our house. I've told Janet how isolated I felt having fibromyalgia & arthritis and she said her mother-in-law was feeling the same. She moved up here with her family and hadn't really gotten out and made friends in the two years they lived here. We called and visited but then Janet said they were all moving back to CA. I was a little sad - Gayle & I got along great. But turns out she didn't move down with Janet. She's trying to sell her house but she's hoping it doesn't sell - she said she likes it here and is willing to go back and forth when the weather gets dreary here. I would love to do that when Rich retires. Maybe we can.

. . . til tomorrow

Saturday, August 16, 2008

Dipping my toe in the water of creativity

I love following Dayna Collins blog - I signed up for her "Artist's Way" course and was unable to go to it. A few weeks ago I saw an entry about a book club she belongs to - and e-mailed her & asked if they would accept me as a new member. I went to my first meeting the other day and LOVED it! What a cool bunch of women.

I have felt so isolated these last few years because of my fibromyalgia and arthritis. Oregon is a beautiful state but for people with this combo of chronic illnesses it sucks - big time! I am planning to take the Artist's Way course in January and I'm also taking a Visual Journaling: A Life Collage class - it involves making a journal and I'm stoked. I am hoping meeting a bunch of women that also want to be creative (and have fun in the process). Thank you Dayna for accepting me.

I do create using Paint Shop Pro. I am in some MSN groups and we use "tags" - taking an image and layering it with paper, different effects and accessories. I enjoy doing it blasting my music LOL. I love making tags for other people. If they admire my work I'm happy to create and give it away. I'm interested in digital scrapbooking - using papers and elements along with my images - really cool stuff is available. I'm hoping to transfer that creativity to real life - making things for myself, my friends and loved ones.

Today is going to be a hot one in Salem Oregon. I guess this is a precursor to what's to come when we move down to Arizona LOL. I am staying inside blasting my music and maybe make a tag for someone.

Adios amigos & amigas - til tomorrow . . .

Friday, August 15, 2008

Work in Progress

Well time to pull out the ol' html. I took a class a while back and now I need it for this blog. Always learning, always growing - that's how our minds should be. I'll hopefully be posting a blog on interests of mine, thoughts for the day, etc.

A little intro -

I was born in Philly and I've lived in - Hooks TX, San Diego CA, Hornbrook CA (pop. 200) and now Salem. Married to a wonderful man Rich and we have a beautiful, smart, caring daughter Amy. Two grandchildren - Zoey 6 and Brandon 3. Zoey is like looking at Amy at the same age and little Brandon - his bright blue eyes are magic. He was diagnosed with autism and I'm learning all I can about it and will be posting links I find interesting for those interested.

I worked most of my life from age 18 to 45. Early retirement was a blessing and a curse LOL. I am still trying to find my way. I've had thyroid problems and found out from a routine blood test I had Hepatitis C. My way is to research and find out all I can and fight like hell with a positive attitude. I went through treatment - similiar to chemotherapy. It was not fun but I came out the other side - I am "clear" of the disease and had six months of thanking God I didn't have to go through any more treatment. I started feeling tired, achy and numb in some parts of my body. This was before I learned fibromyalgia is hereditary. I've had arthritis after I had rheumatic fever at age 9. I got treatment and it flared up now & again but this time it came on full force. My husband has been my rock through all this.

I met my hubby in a country western bar in Philadelphia. He was in the Navy and was leaving for his home port in two weeks. We date from the moment we met and he asked me to marry him 13 days later - and I accepted. He went through rehab for alcoholism. It wasn't until much later we found out the reason for his alcoholism - PTSD from Viet Nam. He was misdiagnosed at depressive, clinically depressed, bipolar and finally PTSD & depression. Another cause I am passionate about - veterans with PTSD and how they are treated. We only found out recently he has ADD. His counselor said bipolar and ADD are so similiar - I believe that. He only had the depressive qualities though so we were puzzled by the bipolar diagnosis.

Our daughter Amy - she is part of my heart. She is generous, funny, beautiful, smart, caring. She's had her demons also and at 24 went through a lot of things I never dreamed of at that age. Zoey's father is 10 years older than she. When they met he was an alcoholic and Amy was on probation. I made a lot of bad decisions at that time. She wanted to stay at her friend's house and Wayne was the head of the household. Amy had run away a few times, was on probation and could not be tied down with rules. She wanted to move back home but I said she had to have rules (she was under 18) and she made the choice to go with Wayne. They ended up in Tucson (where he's originally from) and she told me she was pregnant. In my opinion Amy was too young. I was 26 when I had her and even then I was scared. So much responsibility for a life. I saw Zoey at one week old and saw what a good mother Amy was.

Amy and Wayne had an abusive relationship due to them both being immature. She had told me she was a topless dancer and it broke my heart. I knew that wasn't a good job - Amy was better than that. She started to hate the job or herself not sure which and got addicted to drugs. She was taking methadone to get off of oxycontin - trading one bad thing for another. I saw the chaos in her life. She left Wayne and met Brandon and was pregnant with little Brandon (Bubba).

Bubba's aunt pressed charges and Amy & Brandon have been clawing their way over the wall ever since. Amy was pregnant and lost little Roman Gabriel on November 30, 2007. It broke Rich's and my heart. Amy & Brandon have lost custody of their son but I do hope she'll try and see & talk to her daughter. Zoey is old enough to know her mom doesn't see her enough. Wayne is being the best dad he can be and not drinking.

My family means a lot to me and not being able to fix things - it hurts. I want my grandkids & daughter to come over to my house and have dinner, hang out and watch a movie together. I am mostly a positive thinker - it's gotten me through a lot of hard times.

I want to be the best I can be. I'd love to write a book, learn another language, travel with Rich and our daughter and grandkids to DisneyWorld & Disneyland. I still have a long way to go . . . .