Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Coming out of my "cave"

I can't believe it's been 6 months since my last blog post.  I've stepped away from my blog writing, my crafts and stepped into Facebook games, endless hours of TV, and my husbands depression.  I wrote this back in May but didn't post it but it might explain what I was going through -

I started watching Shania Twain on OWN.  I liked her music and wondered what happened to her. Then being the entertainment junkie I am I read about her hubby cheating on her with her "best friend"! Nice, right? I do believe when a marriage goes bad it's not only one persons fault, even if they are the  one that cheated.  I know when you are married for any length of time you take each other for granted, get bored, etc.  I know that when something happens and you feel like your heart is broken to bits it takes a while to trust again.  Watching this show it clicked with me - the pleasure I have in sharing my thoughts, feelings, observations on this blog - I felt like I lost my ability to be honest and open with whoever reads this blog.  I like helping people, making people laugh - and I didn't feel like laughing much lately.  I withdrew from people I've known in my online support groups, people I've known in my craft groups.

I'm still struggling with fibromyalgia, arthritis and this god-awful weather that doesn't make it any better.  I'm struggling with my husband and his depression.  I know there are people out there like me

Anyone who loves or cares for someone that has depression, PTSD (Rich was undiagnosed for a long time after he came back from Viet Nam in 1972) - you have to "put your oxygen mask on first". I didn't really talk to anyone other than my mom and two women friends I have known for years (but haven't met yet), played the mindless games on Facebook to take up time, went to bed late and got up late, looked at my craft table every once in a while.  It wasn't all bad - I talked to our daughter more often and we keep contact through Facebook, I started to eat a little better, drink a little more water, lost some weight I needed to lose.

Rich had just gone back to work on the 18th of November.  He called me a couple of times from work, sounded good, but then the 3rd phone call he told me he was being rushed to the hospital.  I thought it might have been a mental breakdown, but when I got to the hospital he was hooked up to all kinds of monitors and was told it was his heart.  He had fallen twice down the stairs at work, and the second time it scared him.  He had an angiogram, and the cardiologist said that 3 arteries were blocked and a bypass needed to be done the next morning.  I remember Rich saying "well I need to put this off for a week or two" and the doctor came in and said "tomorrow morning - 7:30 am".  That was that LOL.  Heart problems run in his family - his mother and dad had these surgeries done twice each.  Rich has been eating better, his depression is better, and he's ready to go back to work. He knows he doesn't want this surgery again, so he's watching his diet more and eating healthier.  I'm eating more protein, less sugar so it's helping me a bit too and taking supplements like I used to.

Thanks Kelli for commenting on my last blog post - it was meant to be.  Also Candace for reminding me about my crown - I just lost it for a while but it will show up soon as sparkly as ever!

I'd love to hear your thoughts, comments, questions about my post - and also to remind me to keep on writing - giving me a push when needed.


P.S.  And now some links, etc. I've found interesting, cute, etc.

Family of a Vet
I am a volunteer here and need to start participating

very addicting LOL - find recipes, crafts, etc. and share them with others

My Pinterest

This is Why I'm Broke
I do like the poppable calendar LOL   

Thursday, June 16, 2011

One more time & you'll have to leave!

We’re too old to be getting in trouble…aren’t we? Write about a time you were scolded…as an adult.

Thanks Kat for giving me a great writing prompt today!

I'm usually a play by the rules, respectful of others type person - really! I went to Catholic school for 8 years for goodness sake!  But I remember going with my daughter to see Independence Day at the movie theater.  It was really crowded and we couldn't get seats together so I remember when the lights went down - Amy wanted to sit near me so she sat at the end of the aisle on the floor.  We wanted to see the movie so I told her to stay as close as she could to my aisle seat so we wouldn't get in trouble.  I got really verbal when the us vs. aliens "shoot out" came on - and I was told to "keep it down" by an usher!  I was a little embarrassed, but I was also looking around to see who ratted me out.  Who would object to someone cheering for "our" side?  There was a couple mumbling loudly about noise but I didn't tell the usher about them did I?  

I guess that's why I usually watch movies at home now.  I can LMAO as loud as I want or scream at the "bad guys." If someone knocks at the door during my loud laughter or cheering, I don't answer it!

OK dear readers - have you ever been scolded as an adult - or gotten "out of hand" at a movie theater?  Let me know.

Friday, June 10, 2011

A Day Late but here's my follow up explanation to last weeks prompt -


from Mama Kat - http://www.mamakatslosinit.com/

I've been having trouble with my computer and now have to try and find another place to deal with *sigh*.
Let's get June's 31DBBB Party started on the Forum!
Anyways - the prompt.

A lot of things in my life didn't happen the "normal" way - whatever  THAT is.  In some ways I can laugh and it helps me be prepared for a lot of things that are unexpected.

I met Rich and two weeks later we were engaged.  He then left for Florida, and I stayed behind in Philadelphia.  It was 1982 and no computer, so we called each other and I wrote a lot.  We decided to get married on July 23rd, 1983.  We would go to a Justice of the Peace and then a great reception paid for by my grandmother at a place we've eaten before with really good food.  Rich was married before and we were going down to City Hall to get our marriage license.  I called beforehand and they said he needed his divorce papers.  He didn't have them and didn't know where they were back in California.  This was about 2-3 days before we were to get married!  I cried and told my mom - I guess I had to tell someone.  She was the only one - well and her friend that worked with her - that knew we weren't married when we went to our reception.  Well the good food I thought I was going to have - I was so nervous I just drank champagne and laughed a lot!

After the reception we packed up and drove across the US to Oregon where I met Rich's parents for the first time.  It was hard to keep up the pretense that we were married, but Rich wanted to wait until November 12th (the day we met) to get married.  We were on our way to Reno Nevada  (they don't check previous marriages, etc.) and there was a horrible snowstorm.  We got married on December 12th - *phew*.  It was a funny ceremony because Rich just wanted us to go to the chapel and not change clothes so it was corduroys and a sweater for me, jeans for him.  I did laugh about it because it was just us and I wasn't nervous at all.  I had the pretty dress, flowers, reception with family and friends and a "quickie" wedding - just in reverse order!

Friday, June 3, 2011

My Guilty Pleasure Songs - sing along if you know one of them!

OK so I'm doing the Secret of Success is Support (SITS) girls 31 days to be a better blogger.  I've done lists before on my blog - *8 things that make you feel powerful*8 things - the family cabin30 Things about my invisible illness you may not know.  I like doing lists because I feel they help you get to know me better.

I was one of those kids that sang Christmas carols in the summer, listened with my grandmom to Trini Lopez "If I had a Hammer", and was introduced to the post AM radio Beatles "Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band" album through my uncle Chris at around 10-11 years old (he was around 20 at the time).

My guilty pleasure songs - well - when my daughter was a teen there was Backstreet Boys and NSYNC and she listened to them, and then I got to like them!  Of course she then went on to some other music, but I still sang along.  I admit when I watched this video -

I sang along really loud - inside I felt like a teenage girl LOL.

So in no particular order here are some of my "guilty pleasure" songs - and yes I'm the one in the car next to you singing along to the radio/CD

1.  I Want it That Way - Backstreet Boys
2.  Bye, Bye, Bye - NSYNC
3.  Forget You - Cee Lo Green
4.  Express Yourself - Madonna
5.  My Sharona - The Knack
6.  Most anything by the Glee Cast
7.  Dancing Queen/Mama Mia - Abba
8.  Baby - Justin Bieber
9.  867-5309 (Jenny) - Tommy Tutone
10. Raise Your Glass - Pink

OK admit it (I won't tell anyone) - got some guilty pleasure songs? I'd love to add to my listening list.

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Six Word Memoir

Thanks Kat for this jump-start to my blogging after 2-3 months:

1.) Six Word Memoir: Write about a significant time in your life in just six words.

Reception before marriage - that's my life

Another post coming later today!

Thursday, February 17, 2011

How's that positive attitude working for me this year?

I am doing Kat's writing prompt this week http://www.mamakatslosinit.com/2011/02/disneyland-bound/ -  How’s that New Years Resolution treating you? - and I have to say it's pretty good!  I'm not quite Mary Sunshine but I am laughing a lot more.  One thing that helped was a blog post I missed but read about a week ago about acceptance  -  http://www.chronicbabe.com/articles/102/ This was written by Jenni Prokopy 6 years ago and 8 years after her diagnosis of fibromyalgia.  I've kind of gone through the different "fixes" to help myself, but I guess acceptance is the key.  It's helped me a lot, and I also learned that the simple things are the best medicine.  I'm watching a lot of funny shows on TV, I'm trying to figure out better things to eat - steel cut oats for breakfast instead of packaged oatmeal, I'm talking more with hubby, reading Carrie Fisher's book Wishful Drinking.

There are things I can't do anything about - the weather and how it makes me feel - but when I see the sun outside I smile.  When it's chilly outside I put on my bright striped socks and make some hot chocolate with marshmallows or I want to try some soup recipes in either our crock pot or health master (soup in 8 minutes and you can use whole tomatoes for tomato soup!).

There are a lot of things I want to do and will get to do them.  For me I figured out I need to not think too far ahead and if I do to think about positive things - going on trips with our grandkids, living in a warm, dry climate, growing our own vegetables and/or fruit.

It's not a resolution but something I can handle - thinking more positive and even smiling more - is going fine so far.

gourmet handmade marshmallows - yum!



Thursday, February 3, 2011

Laughed Until I Cried - and that's a good laugh!

I decided to do a writing prompt from http://www.mamakatslosinit.com/ - thanks Mama Kat!

I like seeing "blooper" shows on TV, and I sometimes laugh but then wince and go "omg" on America's Funniest Videos when someone falls or gets hit by a toddler in the crotch.  I watch Marx Brothers movies

and they are so silly, so the laughter for me is pretty easy.

The last time I laughed until I had tears was the bloopers show for Hot in Cleveland. In a way I can relate to these women because they are in my age range, and Betty White, at 89, is still a great comedian with great timing.  I loved watching all the women on the show on their previous shows - Jane Leeves on Frazier, Valerie Bertinelli on One Day at a Time (I actually related to her at the time it was on the air even though I was the older sister in our family), and Wendie Malick on Just Shoot Me.

When was the last time you had a good laugh?

Thursday, January 6, 2011

NaBloPoMo prompt for today (and some other assorted stuff)

One of my sweet grandkids - London

Kant said that we require three things by which to measure happiness: someone to love, something we like to do, and something to look forward to. Who do you love, what do you like to do, and what are you looking forward to this year?

Well I have a lot of "someones" I love - my husband, my pets, my daughter, grandkids, mom, sister, nieces, nephews and some online friends I've talked to on the phone but haven't met yet.  I love you all!

Something I like to do - write, read and listen to music.  Song stuck in my head right now - Dynamite by Taio Cruz


What I'm looking forward to this year - right now I'm taking one day at a time.  Even though I'm striving to be more positive this year all I can say is I'm looking forward to be happier this year.

Speaking of positive -

I LOVE this story!  It goes to show you that you can be so down and someone touches your life - and your or your life can change in an instant.


and this - is just ADORABLE!

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

(Almost) Wordless Wednesday

I love Kim Anderson's photographs.  The old-fashioned look with the combination of black and white and color.

Another "artist" I enjoy is Mary Engelbreit.  I love all the bright colors, etc. This link I provided are free desktop wallpapers - enjoy!

This is Jody Bergsma - I like her art because she does sea otters LOL.

All my followers - do you have a favorite artist?

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

My Bloggy Friends

OK so maybe bloggy isn't a word but it sounds good to me so I'm going to use it.  I have a bunch of blogs I subscribe to via e-mail, some I read through.  I try and reply to some, but I saw this in my e-mail and thought about all the "rodent" pets we've had through the years:

WARNING: if you don't like rats/mice don't read LOL:


Kat's January post reminded me of the times I got stuck with pregnant mice and rats.  The first time I was around 10 years old and had a crush on an older boy named Donald.  He said "do you want to buy a mouse for a dollar - I'll give you the food too!" Wow what a deal, huh? My grandmom across the street took her in and pretty soon - babies!  I checked a few days later and no babies.  My grandpop said he "took them for a swim in the Delaware".  I remember hearing something about brothers and sisters not caring if they were related and it was a foggy kind of "birds and bees" talk.

Another blog I follow is   http://thejourneyleadshome.wordpress.com/

Pam deals with chronic illness like myself, and at one point I e-mailed her about losing weight together.  I know I need to, but I am pretty much like

Another blog I like - http://www.fragileannie.com/.  Annie posts things that make me laugh and make me think.

http://lindapetersondesigns.blogspot.com/ - a great online teacher, a really creative person.  I love reading her blogs and looking at her creations - she inspires me.

Here are some funny quotes I find about friends:

1. "A true friend is someone who thinks that you are a good egg even though he knows that you are slightly cracked." ~ Bernard Meltzer
2. "There are three faithful friends, an old wife, an old dog, and ready money." ~ Benjamin Franklin
3. "Money can't buy friends, but you can get a better class of enemy." ~ Spike Milligan
4. "A true friend stabs you in the front." ~ Oscar Wilde
5. "Marriage is a sort of friendship recognized by the police." ~ Anonymous
6. "An old friend will help you move. A good friend will help you move a dead body." ~ Jim Hayes
7. "Give me one friend, just one, who meets the needs of all my varying moods." ~ Esther M. Clark
8. "Love is blind. Friendship tries not to notice." ~ Anonymous
9. "I have lost friends, some by death, others through sheer inability to cross the street." ~ Virginia Woolf
10. "Friends may come and go, but enemies accumulate." ~ Thomas Jones